Mr. SponsorPants

waiting for ME to do something

 

 

 

 

 

 

If after I pray I'm

waiting for God to do something,

I've got it backwards.

 

God is the Principal, I am the Agent.

 

God may do something,

(God my do something pretty spectacular)

but I've got to give God something to work with.

 

Over the course of my life

when I've been sitting there

waiting for God to do something,

I believe

God's been sitting there,

waiting for ME to do something.

 

Faith without works

is dead.

 

 

 

 

simple to be happy. But

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

worth repeating

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

been observed for pretty much a thousand years now

 

 

 

 

Over the last several days

I've had a crash course in

how shitty it is to

see qualities you cannot stand

in yourself

reflected/demonstrated

in others.

 

As has been observed for

pretty much a thousand years now,

by people both wise and spiritual,

Man, that is a bitch.

 

<sigh>

Time to get to work.

Again.

Again.

Still and

again.

 

 

 

 

sounds sappy, I know, but that doesn't make it any less true

 

 

 

 

 

It sounds really sappy, I know. But that doesn't make it any less true.

So much of my alcoholism and addiction was trying to "fill the hole inside" by pulling things into my life to change how I felt; to feel better. To feel "good." To feel happy. But the more I got the more I wanted. Needed. I was in a constant state of acquisitive desire and some kind of freaky soul hunger. The fix never lasted. Never.

It wasn't till I reversed the flow -- by giving -- that the size of the hole (the scope of my hunger, the depth of my need) -- began to lessen. To shrink.

Probably no one is more acutely aware of how sickly sweet this sentiment is. And God knows, I wish I had something cooler to offer on the topic. But I cannot deny the truth of my experience: Service keeps me sober.

And service brings a rich happiness, eventually -- to my great surprise (and a little dismay), turns out it's the fix that lasts.

 

 

 

layers

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

There's a reason some people compare spiritual growth to peeling an onion. For some of us there are many layers to traverse on the way to discovering a truth.

While there might be any number of ways to do that if one is both earnest and willing to do the work, for me it was the 12 Steps which gave me the tools to do the work that worked for me.

In my experience...

 

 

In my experience, people who fancy themselves as the kind of person who "tells it like it is," (and they are always describing themselves that way "You know, I'm the kind of person who tells it like it is. It's just who I am!") are rarely the type of person who can ever actually hear it like it is.

 

"When a person offended we said to ourselves, 'This is a sick man.  How can I be helpful to him?  God save me from being angry. Thy will be done.'"  -- Big Book, pg. 67

 

"What an order! I can't go through with it!" -- Big Book, pg. 60

"You can say that again."  -- Mr. SponsorPants, about 2:45pm, earlier in the day.

 

Cheers!