As my dead sponsor (he who's wise counsel I miss every single day) once told me,
"If you can stay sober for 24 hours you can do anything for 24 hours."
That's gotten me through a lot of "bad" days.
Funny thing about those bad days is, sometimes, after you get through them, you find out they weren't bad at all.
Sometimes, yes, they were, and no amount of perspective shift or passing time will change much about them... but in (for me, many) other cases it turns out that they were exactly the right thing at the right time -- I just couldn't see it yet.
Take heart. If it's a bad day, you can get through it.
And maybe after you do, you'll discover something good was in play all along.
I think this might be true of me sometimes -- as an addict I am wired to escape or check out.
But I also believe that AA has given me powerful tools to remain in the present -- and deal with it.
In so doing, I have learned that while I may not be able to choose what happens TO me, I can make decisions about what happens IN me.
Once I get a measure of emotional and spiritual sobriety I have the chance to govern my reactions without losing my authentic feelings (as opposed to getting mired in what I think I should be feeling).
So I gain some clarity, eventually leading me to escape less and