Thank you for the day, this day, the turn of the page, the being here for the next New Year.
Thank you for all the lessons over the past 365. I was going to say "lessons learned" but we both know that while some lessons were presented (or presented again! ouch!) not all of them were learned. Or some that were learned were somehow un-learned. Forgotten.
Regardless, thank you for the lessons, because I know now more than ever that they aren't lessons so much as chances. Opportunities. And every single thing you present to me -- every wonderful, confusing, scary, uncomfortable, humbling, tantalizing, spectacular, joyous and mysterious-in-the-moment thing -- are all (every single one) an effort to help me see and feel the connectedness of You ever more clearly around me. To see all the people I encounter with truly loving eyes, to fully appreciate each rich moment of my life; to stretch in my faith and to wear down my internal walls (so lovingly built, brick by brick, day by day, in the mistaken attempt to keep me safe -- or in a wise attempt to keep me safe then, but are in fact blocking me from the light now.)
Thank you for the chance to fill my life with people (both the terrifying and the nurturing). Some people mistakenly think they are bereft. Abandoned. Alone - without hope or help. I know that is not my truth today - and it never has to be again, if I am willing to show up and open up.
Thank you for dear family, blessed friends, for all the people I've worked with this year who taught me so much.
Thank you for my sponsees, those men and women I cherish and who (though sometimes I think they don't quite believe it) help me far, far more than I ever believe I am able to help them.
Thank you for my Great Spiritual Teachers, those who push me to develop ever more patience and tolerance, kindness and grace.
Thank you for helping me see myself with new eyes, to learn to love and forgive (but still work on) my messy procrastination, my sloppy self indulgence, my impulsiveness, my rigidity, my fear and my ego -- and to acknowledge the healthy things about me, those gifts you so generously showered me with: my talent, my capacity for empathy, my sense of humor, my ability to both listen and hear...
my humble path,
clean water, good food, safe haven,
Thank you God, for 2013: a little scary and very splendid by turns.
And as for 2014, God -- You and me, let's see what we can make of it, okay? Word has it that, one day at a time, there's pretty much nothing we can't do together.
So let's prove that right.
With Gratitude and Love,