I think this might be true of me sometimes -- as an addict I am wired to escape or check out.
But I also believe that AA has given me powerful tools to remain in the present -- and deal with it.
In so doing, I have learned that while I may not be able to choose what happens TO me, I can make decisions about what happens IN me.
Once I get a measure of emotional and spiritual sobriety I have the chance to govern my reactions without losing my authentic feelings (as opposed to getting mired in what I think I should be feeling).
So I gain some clarity, eventually leading me to escape less and
the funny thing is, I thought about putting this up and then decided, "No, Mr. SponsorPants, this isn't very nice. See if you can find something a little gentler." But everything else I tried to put up -- and I really tried, folks -- kept having one or another technical issue. So finally, in exasperation, and because it was time for me to call it a day, I threw this at the blog, and *bing* it posts without a single technical hitch.
So while it may border more on the superstitious rather than the spiritual to think this way, I suppose somebody out there was supposed to read this today.
And if you think it's you, sorry for the tough talk, but sometimes I guess that's what it takes.
Of course, it might be for me. And in that case... ouch.