It is possible -- even easy -- to take a perfectly good day and ruin it, through the power of your own mind and its lousy, stinking thinking.
The likelihood of this happening (or not) for me is in direct proportion to the amount of AA meetings I have been to in a week.
The quality of Willingness is like a muscle; without use it atrophies.
Some people are so determined to be victims that if no one around is victimizing them they will create a completely fictitious scenario in their mind which allows them to feel victimized. One of the most important things to consider about this is that, since, by necessity, they are blind to this mechanism at work, it is possible (perhaps even likely?) that there are dysfunctional mechanisms at work within any of us me which we I are am also completely blind to, and which create wholly fictitious scenarios to validate a personal, dysfunctional script/identity.
Again, the likelihood of this happening (or not) to me is in direct proportion to the amount of AA meetings I have been to in a week.
I moved from a city with 3+ meetings every day to one with 1 meeting a week...so I've been pondering what meetings do for me. I miss the fellowships terribly, and I find I have to put extra effort to do prayer and meditation and remember to do the actions in my life. These are things that meetings remind me of, that I now have to consciously put into my day...I have to take a lot more responsibility for my recovery...Thanks again for your blog!
Posted by: Molly Dumas | November 05, 2011 at 02:46 PM